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Thoughts on improving my health

Sunday, August 30th, 2015

One of my goals is to improve my health.  What does this mean?

The biggest part to me is losing weight.  It’s hard to know how much.  I keep thinking 100 lbs, but that’s probably because it’s a nice round number (ha! fat pun, round number, get it?).  Seriously though, I’m 6’4″ and I weigh 300  lbs.  Losing 100 lbs is probably possible, but I doubt it would be healthy.  The last time I weighed 200 lbs was 23 years ago, and I wasn’t as tall, and had a lot less muscle.  I got down to 215 ten years or so ago.  It felt great, I looked good, but even since then I’ve put on muscle.  The engineer in me wants to put a number on it…what can I say, I’m a numbers guy?  I think the initial target will be 70 lbs – I’ll just have to play it be ear after that.

Even though losing weight is my biggest health issue, there’s so much more.  I don’t want to just be thinner, I want to be healthier.  That’s going to involve so many life changes it’s hard to contemplate at times.  Better diet and exercise are the places to start, and they’ll contribute to the weight loss as well.

What else?  I smoke.  On and off since I was 12.  I’ve been “vaping” (I hate that term) for about eight months now.  That’s going to have to go too.  I just know that I can’t successfully give up all my emotional crutches at once.  Food is a HUGE emotional crutch for me.  I know that part has to change, and it has to change first.  I’ll eventually give up the nicotine as well.

I worry about my emotional health as well as my physical.  Sometimes I wonder how much my physical state contributes to my emotional and mental state.  It certainly does contribute – let’s face it, if you’re not happy with how you look, and you’re not happy with how you feel, that’s gotta be playing a role when you’re not happy with who your are.  I also wonder how  much the quality of my sleep impacts me.  I sleep with a CPAP (yay sleep apnea! not.).  It helps tremendously.  But at the same time, I feel like the quality of my sleep isn’t that great.  I don’t get to bed as early as I should.  I’m so used to staying up until a particular time, and getting up at a particular time, that it’s a hard habit to break.  But I know I need more sleep because when I get good quality sleep it makes a huge difference in the way I feel and behave and react to the world.

When I reflect on it, getting healthy as a goal is treating my symptoms.  What I really want is to feel good.  I don’t think I know how to feel good, so I’m treating the things that make me feel bad.  There are less tangible things I need to improve.  I don’t have a great plan for those yet.  Spiritually/philosophically, I have another set of issues.  I don’t know how to address those yet, but I’m thinking about it.  I imagine it will be the subject of more musings.

Wow. It’s been a while.

Friday, August 7th, 2015

Almost four years since my last post.  Ironically, I’m not working at Expedia anymore, and now I’m back at Duck Creek (which is actually owned by Accenture at this point).

I’ve decided to start writing again…I don’t suppose it matters if anybody reads it or not.  This is my online journal, where I can ramble and ponder and write whatever I want.  If you happen to stumble upon it, I hope you enjoy. :)

Chain reaction

Thursday, April 28th, 2011

Stress causes depression. Depression causes anxiety. Anxiety causes emotional outbursts (anger/frustration for me generally). These lead me back to stress.

Have you ever wanted to just walk away from it all? I don’t mean that in a “leave my family, quit my job” kind of way. I just mean, I would like to walk away from stress and depression, and anger, and anxiety, and for a little while just be happy-go-lucky and care free. To just forget about all the problems.

I think these are called “vacations”. I probably need one.

Tired

Wednesday, December 29th, 2010

I spent the night in the hospital last night – not for myself. My father in law was very sick and we were pretty scared there for a while. He’s doing much better today, but it’s hard to sleep in a chair all night!

Cooking with Ovaltine

Tuesday, August 3rd, 2010

Have you ever pondered the difference between following a recipe and cooking?  To me, cooking is a form of art.  Anybody can follow a recipe, but to really cook is an art.  I think most people can learn this form of art, it just takes time and practice like anything else.  Some people will be better at it than others.

So where am I going with this, and what’s it got to do with Ovaltine anyway?  Last Sunday we stopped by the house of some friends (the James family).  This family is from India, and they are *cooks*, not just recipe followers :).  When you prepare a dish that has 8+ different spices in it, and you don’t measure anything, you just do a little tasting along the way, that my friends is cooking.  Now I can cook like that (thank you Allena!), but what really impressed me is that the James family buys spices in bulk and stores them in Ovaltine jars.  Unlabeled Ovaltine jars.  So, when you watch them cook…well, they’re just cooking with Ovaltine :).